‘Keep Calm and Caffeine On!’ Mug.
My laptop is overheating as I type this and it’s becoming difficult to type. I might need to invest in a notebook fan for it; although the last time I did buy one it didn’t work too well and it was quite loud. It’s a really nice day today; breezy with clear skies. However, I’m still stuck in the house with no where to go, drinking water out of a mug insisting that I drink caffeine instead. Perhaps I’ll drag someone from my family to go the bakery with me, I’ve been craving for some macarons. My writing sucks, but my fingers are burning so no actual thoughts are being put into this paragraph.
A few months ago when my social anxiety hit an all time low; I decided to purchase this nifty journal to keep track of my thoughts. How it works is that there is a page for each day of the year, each with its own question. Each question is to be answered each day for the next five years. In this way, you can keep track of how different or similar your thoughts are as the answers to each question are repeated through the five years. I personally thought it was interesting because of the long-term aspect of it; I tend to neglect things after a while due to lost of interest. But with this, there is some sort of structure to it in the sense that each day there’s a mandatory question to answer; keeping me interested.
Today’s question kind of hits me hard, mentally speaking. 2012 was such a traumatic year for me. My mindset took a turn for the worse to the point where I had slight depression. My social anxiety kept me up many nights for weeks on end, restrained me from connecting with anyone, and made me fear for so many things. Worse of all, it impacted my grades; the one thing I had confidence in. But somewhere along the line, I realized how truly cherished i am. My friends were always there for me; just when I began to thought that they had all forgotten me. My family reassured me that family is family and that I’l always have them, no matter how strained things get. And so, I’m getting better. I still get panic attacks, but that’s become seldom now.
I wish I could stop all the traumatic and embarrassing events from happening. (How vague)
My 2013 Birthday Cake.
My birthday is on April 20th, so it’s been two days since I’ve aged another year. I spent the day with my family, as I do every year, doing nothing really special. But that’s okay, because all I really want is the Birthday money anyways, haha. This year I chose to go with a cheesecake for my birthday cake; I should’ve chosen the mango cake instead, the cheesecake didn’t live up to my expectations. Birthdays and all other family celebrations have seem to lost meaning as we all get older. I loved how large the festivities were when I was little; now it just seems like it’s just an obligatory day where we all have to meet. Funny how I don’t seem to mind the change though.
Sephora Online Order.
This Sephora order had taken place a long while ago, I just didn’t have the means to upload it yet. Seeing how I’m trying hard to sustain this blog now, I’ll be uploading random photos that were taken awhile ago but left unposted.
Bath & Body Works - London Calling ‘Tea & Lemon’ Scented Candle.
So I decided to fall into the candle craze that everyone seems to be a part of now-a-days by purchasing my first candle. I used to fear lighting a candle for the thought of burning something down, mainly my entire house. However, I did have a gift card and this candle did smell AMAZING. It’s such a soothing smell and it’s not one of those scents that you’ll get sick of quickly, or at all. I haven’t lighten it yet since I’ve had a busy week where I’ve been constantly coming home late. School and the attempt of maintaining a social life is keeping me away from my room. Albeit a good thing, I kind of miss lofting around my room and house, doing absolutely nothing. But that being said, I can confidently say that I’m much more happier and motivated than I was weeks ago!
I’ll do anything to get out of having to do my work. And now one of those things include finally posting some sort of update on my personal blog. My school workload has just packing on and on these past few weeks but the motivation to do it all is no where to be found. Worse of all, exam month is quickly approaching. I didn’t even finish all my midterms yet. After that, four more months to go! And then I get to do my summer courses! And then after a few days off, it’s time for another year. Nothing exciting has been happening in my life; which results in me having to decide on images that aren’t necessarily my favourite.
All of these images, except for the first, have been taken with my lovely phone. I hate how the pictures look better on my phone than it does on my computer though.
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